posts/leaving-trustroots.md

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-### Beginnings
+
+You can read my very personal account on being part of this network.
+
+## Beginnings
 
 I joined Trustroots in December 2014. Folks from hitchwiki hosted me and [Talita](https://www.trustroots.org/profile/smarkaty) in Antalya on hitchwiki hackathon. Mikael, Arthur and Rémi were about to launch Trustroots.
 
-### Inspiration
+## Inspiration
 
 At that time I wanted to create a social network. You would find people who cared about the same things as you, you would start collaborating, and the world would become a better place.
 
@@ -58,7 +61,7 @@ I didn't understand a social network needed people. After years of development,
 
 [ditup.org](https://ditup.org): Do it together, start it up!
 
-### Contributing
+## Contributing
 
 I fixed a bug in Trustroots in 2016. Months later, somebody, probably Mikael, asked me whether I would work on statistics. I said yes.
 
@@ -66,27 +69,27 @@ Went to hackathon in Berlin, met people from yunity and Trustroots. I stayed con
 
 Contributed some more. Not being inspired, I decided to never make any decisions or take power. I only coded.
 
-Went with Talita to a collective in Spain in fall 2018. Met with Abel, Kasper and others.
+Went with Talita to a collective in Spain in fall 2018. Met with Abel, Kasper and others. I had a pleasure to collaborate with Abel. I also enjoyed getting to know Kasper who had been a mythical figure for me (hitchwiki, trashwiki, nomadwiki). I don't remember him being active in Trustroots before, but this time he was here and had a lot of ideas about what Trustroots could become. After the collective, Kasper disappeared again for over a year.
 
-Around that time I hoped Trustroots could help refugees get help on their way. I was told this would be possible only after Trustroots was translated and Tribes (now Circles) were more evolved. I didn't argue, but I started working on translations, along with React migration.
+Around that time I hoped Trustroots could help refugees get help on their way. I was told (in now defunct forum by I don't know whom) this would be possible only after Trustroots was translated and Tribes (now Circles) were more evolved. I didn't argue, but started working on translations, along with React migration.
 
-### Dreaming
+## Dreaming
 
-At some point Mikael, who had been the main force and authority behind Trustroots, got 
+Mikael Korpela, who had been the main force and authority behind Trustroots, started having less time for Trustroots.
 
-When Nick Sellen came back to Trustroots, I was very happy with the direction we as a community took. I didn't have my own vision, but Nick's vision resonated with me. These were vaguely hopes for more community-driven Trustroots, in which founders would gradually give up their power and authority.
+Then Nick Sellen came back to Trustroots and I was very happy with the direction we as a community took. I didn't have my own vision, but Nick's vision resonated with me. These were vaguely hopes for more community-driven Trustroots, in which founders would gradually give up their power and authority and we would be organized in peer to peer way, with power more equally distributed.
 
-Nick left and some of this vision may have left with him. I hope some of it may have stayed. I can't say since I haven't been around.
+[Nick left Trustroots](https://gist.github.com/nicksellen/3b299c2513e3be9b1caf8f340543cda6) and some of this vision may have left with him. I hope some of it stays. I can't say since I haven't been around.
 
-### Burning out
+## Burning out
 
 During the first pandemia lockdown, I became isolated and unhappy. The Spring 2020 Hackathon took place. I participated, but the remains of my energy got depleted.
 
-I stopped working on Trustroots.
-I stopped coding.
-I lost all excitement.
-I was tired.
-I was burned out.
+- I stopped working on Trustroots.
+- I stopped coding.
+- I lost all excitement.
+- I was tired.
+- I was burned out.
 
 It took me 3 months of cycling around, sleeping outdoors, very little computer and no coding to recover and get excited about life again.
 
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 I left unfinished stuff. Especially the React migration and translations were only half way done. I'm not going to finish it.
 
+There were many new people involved in Trustroots during the 2020 Hackathon. It gave me a hope but I didn't stay around to get to know them better.
+
 ## Why I volunteered for Trustroots
 
 I used and enjoyed Trustroots, but I didn't feel very excited about working on it. I did it so I wouldn't go mad working on stuff that I found more meaningful and exciting but much more likely to fail.
 
-I also learned a lot. Thanks to Trustroots I got fluent in React, learned to collaborate on a major open source project, and could use Trustroots in my portfolio.
+I also learned a lot. Thanks to Trustroots I got fluent in React, learned to collaborate on a major open source project, and could also take credits for some of it (useful when applying for a developer job).
 
 ## Why I'm leaving
 
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 - trust yourself.
 - question authority.
-- meet me.
+- meet with me someday.
 
 Life is essentially meaningless, therefore we are free.
 
 ## Disclaimer
 
-Maybe I'll edit this.
+Maybe I'll edit this article later.